Monday, January 12, 2009

Will it ever stop!!!!

The bleeding that is, i'm just so fed up with it. Its stopped today and hasn't came back. Last night it started again around 5:00pm and went on till about 11:00. I decided to go back to the Er in hopes that they would do an ultrasound and i would get to see our little baby and a heartbeat. Well i did get the u/s and saw the heartbeat and everything. Then the Dr tells me that i'm going to miscarry again, of course i started crying because that was not what i wanted to hear. So they come in with discharge papers and tell me that i need to have a follow up u/s this morning, i was pissed by this point and was like yeah ok whatever. I was laying there waiting for over 2 hours so of course there was more blood in my vagina because it was just pooling in there. Whatever he can think what he wants he can't diagnose a miscarriage if it isn't happening, he should have said threatened miscarriage. So i go to my u/s today trying to stay super positive but at this point i'm out of positive thoughts, i'm trying though. I get into the room very quick and she starts right away. Shes just looking around and then all of a sudden she totally surprised me and i hear the heartbeat! I started crying i was so overjoyed and relived. The babys heartrate was 134bpm, and measured 6 weeks 5 days, still like 3 days behind but the baby is growing right on target acording to my RE, they said implantation could have happened just a little later and thats why. So i have another u/s Friday with my RE and my first Dr's appt next week on the 20th, and then my last u/s on the 23rd through my RE. We could use all the prayers we can get because i don't feel i could handle going through another loss. I just want to have a healthy baby to hold in 8 months! So please say a prayer for us whoever reads this!

1 comment:

Angela said...

I'm sorry this keeps going on! Big {{{HUGGLES}}}.