Its been a little bit.......

So its been awhile since i wrote, at least it seems like awhile lol. This last month has went by super fast! I can't believe that in a month my baby will be 2 OMG!!! Where has the time gone. Anyway things between Chris and I are a little better, i still feel the same way and we have a up days and our down days. I want to try and make it work then another part of me doesn't. I'm still really confused on what i want to do. I really just wanna get out of Washington and move back to good ol Cali! I hate it here and i think thats playing into my unhappiness. Why can't life just be easy sometimes. On top of all of our problems we've been having we are now having money issues! The one thing i cannot stand fighting about because most of the money issues are because of Chris. I'm so glad that we are not trying to have another baby right now, because as of now we cannot afford it. Hopefully when we move and get all settled in San Diego hopefully, we will start getting back on track with everything. I told him yesterday that i wanted to just leave and get out of this crap, that i was totally unhappy with the way our lives were going and that i think it would be better if i moved back home to Ca with my mom till i can get on my feet. He actually told me i was fucking immature and i needed to grow up and not tell him i didn't wanna be with him anymore! WTF!! I can tell you my feelings if i want and just because it isn't what you want to hear doesn't make me immature! So thats whats new with my whole situation!

My TTC Journey is over!

Which really isn't a bad thing in my eyes. Chris and I are having some problems and we decided to just go ahead and not do the IUI or try at all to have another baby until we can see if our problems can be worked out. I went home to visit for 6 weeks and while i was there i relized that i didn't want another baby right now because i want to be able to go out and have fun and have some drinks if i want too, plus when i was home i fell out of love with my husband so we are trying to work things out the best we can. I'm planning another trip home in October so that should be fun. My appt, was today for my IUI consult i was going to go but i think my husband forgot about it, because i was going to ask what there plan was and how long we can put it off but i guess i just got fucked outta that lol. I will be sure to keep you all updated as to when we are going to try again, might be 2 months or it might be a year!