1 week ago....

Our baby became an angel! On January 21st, our little boo became a little angel. The 20th at a regular OB appt, i found out that our little boo's heart stop beating and had passed away. I was 8 1/2 weeks pregnant and this was the worst day in my life to find out that our little baby died! He/she was doing so good Friday heatbeat was 160 and was only measuring 1 days behind now, i was starting to think things were going to be okay. I had found out what the bleeding was caused by i had a very large Subcoronic Hematoma(SCH) it was taking away the blood flow from the baby and thats why the heart stopped. There was nothing they could have done to fix this, the SCH has to fix itself. We will be waiting one cycle and try again. I want a baby so bad and will not give up my journey until I get one. I will be making an appt with my RE again and updated after that appt. Please say some prayers for us!

Will it ever stop!!!!

The bleeding that is, i'm just so fed up with it. Its stopped today and hasn't came back. Last night it started again around 5:00pm and went on till about 11:00. I decided to go back to the Er in hopes that they would do an ultrasound and i would get to see our little baby and a heartbeat. Well i did get the u/s and saw the heartbeat and everything. Then the Dr tells me that i'm going to miscarry again, of course i started crying because that was not what i wanted to hear. So they come in with discharge papers and tell me that i need to have a follow up u/s this morning, i was pissed by this point and was like yeah ok whatever. I was laying there waiting for over 2 hours so of course there was more blood in my vagina because it was just pooling in there. Whatever he can think what he wants he can't diagnose a miscarriage if it isn't happening, he should have said threatened miscarriage. So i go to my u/s today trying to stay super positive but at this point i'm out of positive thoughts, i'm trying though. I get into the room very quick and she starts right away. Shes just looking around and then all of a sudden she totally surprised me and i hear the heartbeat! I started crying i was so overjoyed and relived. The babys heartrate was 134bpm, and measured 6 weeks 5 days, still like 3 days behind but the baby is growing right on target acording to my RE, they said implantation could have happened just a little later and thats why. So i have another u/s Friday with my RE and my first Dr's appt next week on the 20th, and then my last u/s on the 23rd through my RE. We could use all the prayers we can get because i don't feel i could handle going through another loss. I just want to have a healthy baby to hold in 8 months! So please say a prayer for us whoever reads this!

Ultrasound!

Last night was super scary i started bleeding and i broke down crying, i just can't go though this again was all i could think about. I decided to go to the ER since i'm far enough along to see a heartbeat or at least the gestational sac, yok sac and fetal pole. So we get there and the bleeding slowed, they were not going to do the ultrasound at first but after some sweet talking he changed his mind. The only thing was the did it abdominally so they weren't able to see an much. Well it payed off that i'm thin cause they saw everything. They couldn't see a heartbeat though which i expected them not to anyway. So after 2 hours they couldnt' find out where the bleeding was coming from and i was told just to go to my ultrasound appt today and follow up with them. So i get there today and i tell my Dr about the ER visit and the bleeding slowed down a lot to just spotting. She was llike ok let see what we can see on the ultrasound. She does the vaginal ultrasound and right away there was a beautiful little heartbeat! I was so excited tears came to my eyes. The baby was measuring a little behind, i'm supposed to be 6 weeks 5 days and little boo measured 6 weeks 1 day, but then again last night at the ER little boo was 6 weeks 2 days so i guess it just depends on who does it. Baby looks great and they still can't find where the bleeding is coming from. I was told to call and go to the ER if its starts cloting or cramping. So please say a prayer for us that little boo is ok!!

Were Expecting!!

Finally after 12 long month of trying for baby number 3, i'm so excited to say we are expecting! I'm 6 weeks 4 days. Things are going great so far, first betas were 78 at 11DPO and then at 29DPO they were 12,692, which make them double every 2 1/2 days! I'm so excited because with my last 2 losses my HCG levels never went above 295, so i really feel that this pregnancy is going to be a great one. Tomorrow is a huge milestone for us, we are going to see if our baby has a heartbeat! I'm so nervous but excited at the same time. Morning sickness has kicked in, but not to bad yet, i feel nausause more than anything. I'm tired and man do my boobs hurt LOL.